Totally stressed out

Few hours more , i will know everything .Things that waited for so long , my dream and my everything . Right ow i'm totally stressed out , my mood has stayed at unstable zone from yesterday night. Insomnia has became my best friend since January and it visit me almost once in a week.It never happen before , i mean it never happen for 19 years but everything changed after 2011 gone.

Rah ! Hope everything will be fine later.

Just few hours more !

I can't stop to think about it .

 I guess i will know the result in 3 hours time.

WHAT AN 'AWESOME' MARCH =l

Power Up !!!

Bad mood and emotion had bothered me for few months and now is the time for me to forget about all those troubles and relax.I'm pretty sure all the troubles, problems and everything will gather up and come back to me on April . Few days left before April , just take a break by reading some magazines and drinking my favorite local coffee. Met a lot of new people in this month .Some of them were nice but some of them were just too weird for me . I'm not a typical Asian but i always bear in mind that not everything can be that 'open mind'.

Choosing a right course become one of my biggest problem in these few months . I have decided but still considering , what a troublesome woman. I let God to make the choice , like can blame no one after all .Went to education fair but it brought more problems to me . At that tough moment , i even think of finding a fortune teller to tell me how my future will be.After a long long night , out of sudden all the worries gone .Everything back to the normal like very normal .

Things that i worried for few months will have a solution in very short time.Friends are all getting into university and about to start their course , wish them all the best anyway.My best friend is busying doing her portfolio , wish her good luck as well.Please do remember my charming smile if you're leaving to London .

 My family is my biggest effort , they support me no matter what decision i made .Leave or stay ; cry or smile  they will always be there for me . Thank you for all the love you all gave to me .

I'm not mature enough but i'm not naive nor innocent . I need more experience .I always bully my sisters and they always let me bully .I know they will win the game if they wanted to bully me but they always tolerant me just because i'm their elder sister .Maybe my sister will not read this because she's kind or person that don't like to read English.

Life is short , enjoy it .Think back to 15 years ago , when i was still a naive girl with a long long pony tail .Everything was new, awesome and weird for me , i always curious about everything i saw and always ask why why why but now i grew up and i lost my curiosity . Things can be really simple when you have simple mind but the simple world will not come back to me forever . I cannot back to those days but i can eat what i have eaten in those days like 

 Dried fish fillet , so sorry that i have finished all the fillet .

Plum sticks !!

Everything will be coming very fast , i'm ready for all the challenges and i become more confident to myself .April , i'm waiting for you to kiss me in 8 days more *kiss* 

 My legs look short somehow but the fact is they are really short .hahaha

 It's already one o'clock in the midnight .Good night and have a sweet dream!

TSCHUSS!

Chapter one of March 2012

March 2012.

This month is definitely a tough month for me.

Studying overseas is the toughest decision ever, too much to bother , to many things to think.

Before i decided to study at Germany , i had think a lot such as tuition fees , living expenses , language problem and even my results . When everything of these have just settled down ,new problems appear somehow.

Sometimes, i ask myself am i fated to not study at overseas? Don't i deserve to study at other country?

I worked hard to get everything that i need to do to make my dream come true but now comes the trouble again .

It's heartbreaking when you worked so hard and so long just to make something happens but it does even happen at the end .I'm lost ,totally lost .What should i do next? wait or just stay here at complete my study and work ?

I'm not gonna think about it anymore , if it's meant to be ,it will be.Not gonna be unhappy again , life is short we must live it !! ROCK AND ROLL !

Forgive me for not updating the part two of the trip , i'm kinda lazy for these few weeks or few months?

I do went to China after the BP-JB-SIN trip .

Didn't take many photos because everytime when i took out my camera , people will look at me like a bizarre animal just ran away from her cage .So , i wasn't comfortable to snap too many photos but i did snap a few .

 very different from other countries , people ran away when they saw someone snapping photo.

Things aren't really cheap compare to last time .I never try their street foods due to the hygiene problem.

 spot the baby girl on the bicycle , how can she sleeps like that ?

The weather was just cooling like you were in a open air air-conditioned area.

No photo of me in this trip because i don't want to be a weirdo in that place.

April is coming to visit us and it will be nice to me isn't it?

I believe it will .