The Rainbow fades away

Strong wind is blowing into my room, it didn't calm my heart as i thought .

It makes me more nervous and more upset, things didn't go as smooth as i want them to be, i'm totally exhausted i need someone to talk to, yet nobody is free.Problems are getting more and more but no one is solved.I don't know the decision i have made is right or wrong,at least it's my own choice i chose this road.I might regret but i really don't know what to do .

I try to think tons of reasons for me to do this and hope i can do it.

I want to become more independent,i want to grow stronger and i know this is the only chance to let me achieve these.

习惯？

今天真是紧张的一天，连睡觉发梦都在被化学可想而知我有多紧张！

不过，还是顺利的逃过一劫*开心* 可是可是明天才是噩梦的开始，时钟一直嘀嗒嘀嗒的在想告诉我时间在一分一秒的飞逝！我办得到吗？真的可以吗？我可以！只要相信，我一定可以！

今天考完后想要回家，可是又不想搭地铁接到某个站下车去搭巴士，这真的是一个很错的决定！

一个小时的路程让我很不舒服，不论是心理还是生理上都很不舒服！

第一，巴士不但一直摇摇晃晃还很闷热！

第二，怪叔叔们让我感觉很恶心！

写到这里我还真想睡，好了不写了好好的碎个午觉然后再起来奋斗吧！！

不懂

我已经不懂我到底浪费了都少时间，多少日子。我已经不懂，我在做的是对是错。

我已经不懂，我是谁了。

我想要逃脱，逃避 可是事实总是得面对，问题总得解决。

当别人的灯熄灭时，我才刚要开始复习，它才刚刚亮起。

夜阑人静，内心却得不到应该有的平静。

 我还是我吗？当初的魄力还在吗？

桌上的钟表告诉我没时间再耗下了，可是我却还没准备好。

我不懂，我到底有没有做错决定。

 它，陪了我一整晚。

可是，我却还是没坚持到最后。

我很我自己，哪有怎么样？事实永远都不会改变。

我以为我能改变，我以为我有能力可是到最后结果还是一样。

我很不开心，我不是你的发泄对象请不要把气出在我身上，让我自由好吗？

放下Let Go

这篇‘文章’纯碎写爽所以爱美丽啊（AMELIA）你就不必抱怨为啥要写华语了。

刚才很不小心的游览了安德鲁（ANDREW）的部落格发现他竟然说我很可爱！虽然，这本来就是事实不过从他的部落格看到我还是会吓一跳毕竟他是有点'孤僻‘的人吗！难道难道，他他每天都偷偷的STALK我？哈哈哈哈，当他看见时应该会把我给杀了吧！

言归正传，我要纠正一下我之前的文章因为我们伟大的安德鲁要读的不是PEDIATRIC 而是 chiropractic 其实我不太懂这是什么毕竟我对医科一点儿兴趣都没有。

今天，一如往常的早起然后突然想到朋友对我的意义。

朋友，其实非常的重要噢！可能他们比家人还要了解你，毕竟我们都是志同道合才会变成好友吧！

有些人你可以更他们无所不谈哪怕你们才第一次见面还是刚刚认识，有些不管你认识了多久还是没有话题可以聊。一样的想法在一场友谊里扮演了很重要的角色，我很庆幸有了你们！你们是就是茂汶（Melvin），阿么俩（AMELIA），安德鲁（andrew)还有很多很多噢（不能一一列明敬请原谅）。

突然很想送首歌个你们，可是AMELIA 你就不必看了吧。

EIEIEI，不要误会哦！我想说人生几何能够的到知己！

还是这个比较适合？

还有还有，昨天跟AMELIA聊了一整晚的电话耳朵还差点聋掉！！我们竟然不知不觉地聊了一个小时，十六分钟！！话题还蛮广的，从叮当到火鸡，又从火鸡到红红的东西！如果想知道什么是红红的东西请浏览这里！！好了就写到这里吧！

Chit Chat

I thought of give an awesome title for my post but since Mr Andrew like to ask me how the rainbow be in my heart and don't know what don't wait for me, so is better to put a normal tittle instead of bombastic one.Back to topic,went to college at 6.00 as usual lied on the table and slept as usual, walked to canteen at 7.20 as usual then went in Dk 4 which was the place where our first class of Semester 3 will began.

I know it's lame to tell everyone what i did or have done today since nobody wants to know == GILERR .!!

Today's special was AMELIA DIDN'T ATTEND CLASSES 

AND

ME,ANDREW AND MELVIN went to the dessert shop?I don't know what should i call that shop so i decided to call it as AUNTY GHOSY SHOP  .Why i say so?Because the aunt was weird , terribly weird !She will delays 5 secs when you try to talk to her .For example:

Me:  Aunty,i want...... 

Aunty ghosy: .....(5 secs) this?

Me: yes!!

Aunty Ghosy : 50 cents

Me : and i want to ta pao the yam cake and the fried yam!

Aunty Ghosy: .......5 secs again..........these are not yam cakes !

Me: huh? ohh then i want two!

Aunty ghosy : *look at me * then 5 secs again ........

Me: erm, and this also!

Aunty Ghosy: *delaying* this is not fried yam..It's sweet potato

Me: whatever la .then give me one !

Aunty Ghosy :* ta paoing for me *

Me : aunty i want this similoo also!

Aunty Ghosy: *ghost voice* this is not similoo ,it's pumpkin dunno what

Me: == then give me this also.

Then the taste of the pumpkin don't know what was yucks,maybe me and Melvin cannot tahan the taste and it was like whole bowl nicely left on the table.

*************************************************************************

THEN 

we chit chat as usual but suddenly we talked about study overseas and Melvin wants to continues his studies at Taiwan ,while Andrew wants to enter IMU maybe for Chinese Medicine or Paediatrics .Another funny thing happened at this time ,we suggested Andrew to go China to learn Chinese Medicine then he said he will talk like a china man when he backs to Malaysia.And he might marry a China woman ahhhh,Amelia's heart breaks!! Then we keep on talking and talking until i said let's go home!

That's all for today and below is my gilerrr photos!!

 eii where is my head?

TADDAAAA 

AHHHH don't Blur my face!

O.O EXHAUSTED

Next paper,Chemistry 2 and yet i'm still blogging.sigh

The weather for these few days was madly hot ,40 degree Celsius perhaps ?Monday was the day where the last semester of my course started and the time table sucks!Can you imagine you will have 4 hours break for one day that's mean on Tuesday i will go college at 8 a.m and back at 4.00pm but there's only 4 classes for that day.okay,fine then the worst thing is i will be having German class on Tuesday and Thursday .I expected the time table will be very nice so i don't need to rush here and there but the fact is it doesn't look good for me T.T I still need to rush back and then rush to the Jln Ampang again in one hour time.

The time table for German course and the time is fixed.

But nevermind because i believe i can do it ,ahhh my future suddenly seems so bright!!*weee*

Like what mama said you must give out something before you can get something !What i need to do now is DO MY BEST!

I thought my diet plan was going well until i saw this!== CHEESE CAKE ,then i started to lose control and  ate them.....T.T the plan was totally failed .

OKAY !It's the time for Chemistry babe and 

tomorrow will be the first day of meeting up with new friends? !

Hahhahha i hope so! BYE BYE

我病发了

久违的考试后群症又再度的回到我身边，我正式的宣布我病发了。

各位请不要紧张，不要慌张病发时，我顶多只会咬你一口不会做出太变态的行为。

 病发时，我会不知所措就好像这样.....

天啊，我很乱啊！！

症状二，想要找个门来敲敲我的头让我的脑可以运作一下。

以上都是本人接下来的一个月会做出的异常行为所以看到这样的我请不要太慌张，一个月后我的病就会痊愈然后我就会恢复正常！

Happy Mother's Day

Mom,there's only one thing 2 do 3 words 4 you!!I LOVE YOU forever!!

Happy Mother's day and thank you ♥

The Rainbow In My Heart

 I just wanna be myself.

Do whatever i like.

Wear whatever i feel comfortable.

Outfit of the day.

-Casual wear .-

I know Amelia sure will say YER UGLY !!

cheh,who cares jek!!!! bwahahahahha

I mean i feel comfortable when i wearing what i like .Not everyone can accept this type of style ,something like Bohemia or Gypsy style but i like . I have dozens of Harem and fisherman pants but i don't dare to wear when outing with friends since everyone finds it looks weird and i don't like the feel being stare and scan by strangers.The only place i can wear this type of clothes and pants without feeling weird is my shop and Bangkok.

Thanks to my sister for helping me take this photo that makes me looks as short as possible!

Nice one ,my legs look 5cm long .My face expression lagi yong sui,that's the reason why i mosaic ed my 

face. 

Caruon -Carmen becomes Juon 

This will be the effect of editing photo together with my beloved sister.

Beware Of Stalkers

Found out some stalkers that like to stalk me (hahaha joking joking) and 3 out of tons are my friends !They keep on asking me some questions that i said not to ask !

 Spot my sister!She likes to do something weird behind me!

Ehhh ._. stalkers ?Sounds scary horrrr!

Actually, i just wanna post something to release my stress since i cannot solve my awesome, pretty maths question.Take a break and continue my revision! 

Exams?!!

 Today is Friday !!! Don't worry i'm not gonna sing 'FRIDAY' by Rebecca Black since many of us found it's 

kinda annoying.hahahhaha

First paper will be Pure Maths and i still struggling with it.

 Hello , my dear Math please do love me !!

 My table is just like another war zone!

Went to KlCC today because of  the new opening of Uniqlo.Woke up at 6.30 am then went out at 7.00,queued for 2 hours just because of a recycle bag .sigh.But i think Melvin was very happy at that time since he saw his Amanda and Elaine .

Mickey Shirt ,actually it's belong to Melvin but the noobie Mel forgot about the shirt ,so as a responsible sister i will help him to take good care of his baby Mickey.

 And ta-daaa here comes my new clothe CHECKERS oh CHECKERS.

That's all for today and i'm totally broke now.No more outing and concentrate on my exams!

Maths here i come to hunt you down!

Perfect?

I'm not perfect and this is the reason why i keep on searching for a perfect person,but reality shows me there's no one can be perfect.

He or she will be perfect when you think there are,they are perfect to you but not others.That's why he or she is precious, they are the one that  make you feel they are perfect and there are the right one for you.This is the feeling i have been finding for.

I'm a Virgo that have all the characteristics it should have, if you wanna know please feel free to visit this website it has mention the personality of Virgo and i agree with it (here ).

Someone think i'm crazy and some doesn't.The real ME is like this.....

I can be crazy and serious it depends on the situation.,i do serious when i'm doing my job or studying ,when comes to play i can be 1000000000000000 times crazier than you .This is me and nobody can change me except myself.A levels is really a hard job for me and the course is only for one and half year ,i'm about to entering the last semester and it's going to end very very soon.I want to enjoy my teen year ,i don't want to waste it ,i want my teen years full of happiness and memories .

I LOVE.PLAY.EAT.GOSSIP.NERD !

When four of us sit together and start to talk,the conversation will never stop until someone says let's go home.Too many topics and too much of gossip to let us talk about.

 Melvin,the only one who always let us wait for.

 I know i dont look adorable in this photo(hahahah)

 Yea,this so called friends!!! zoom in my face just for THEMSELVES!!=P

 This is the reason why i gained weight!!!

     The big fat BEAR!

I love myself!can this be considered as Egoist?OF COURSE NO!

 I open my mouth as big as possible just for a piece of tofu.SIGH

 Tell me what and why please!=)

 I play !!!

 I can be nerd as well 

 The only one who always kena bullied by me!

and then suddenly feel like listening to this song

Okay,that's all for today !!

Eyes Of Southern Asia

 禅

 Walk with Buddha and find your inner peace.

 I calm myself and start to think.

 No screaming and yelling but  peace and silence .

  And i found my happiness when i look at his kind and gentle face.

Buddha taught me to appreciate.

Buddha said:"Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared.”

Life Goes On

                    I'm thinking how good it's if can reverse back to December.I want my holidays,i don't want EXAMS!!!Well,that's just a IF so stop thinking about it.

Life must go ON!!

Ohhh,thinking of how to prank a person on his birthday, it might be very SCARY for the birthday boy but very AWESOME for his friends .

He's a special friend because he cannot talk as much as i can.He can use as much as tissue he has to make RAMEN(nasal mucus) , he has a big nose which is the main machine to produce the RAMENS and Dumplings . And he likes to eat PAN MEE!!!

Who's that?Let me introduce this LITTLE GUY to you all...................he is 

ANDREW LEE.

As you can see he has a big nose,little eyes ,yong sui face and sinchan's eyebrows !

Okay,is the time to think about the prank prank thingy!!

STAY TUNED KAY!

聆听.感受

感受蒲公英的美，聆听蝉的叫声。

蒲公英的花语：停不了的爱

网上有很多关于蒲公英的传说，不过我坚信如果能找到紫色的蒲公英就能得到完美的爱情。

雨后的空气总是让我感觉特别清新，爽快，听着周围传来的蝉声更让我得到了片刻的平静。

带着超载的心入睡真的不是一件好事，连续五天都这样，可是每天的心情都不一样。

第一天，期待心情。

第二天，兴奋的心情。

第三天，疲倦的心灵。

第四天，担忧。

第五天，懊恼。

不想再让这些思绪烦扰我的心情，这时候的我只想要一杯咖啡一片饼干让我平静了下来。！